It's great to be home but now exhaustion has set in.
I have had months of holding it all together and now I am starting to unravel. I cry at the drop of a hat, feel like I am walking through treacle and all this pent up anger I have over the treatment of Jack in Aberdeen is building up and has nowhere to go.
Until this weekend! I finally, with the help of Holly's boyfriend David, ripped out the built in wardrobes in my room and by Saturday evening I was on my knees with tiredness but I felt like like I had gotten rid of some of my angst! Job well done me thinks.
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| one of the built in wardrobes to come out |
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| the other one is already out |
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| David hard at work |
Jack has been doing really well. We are having more good days than bad days and he is less tired. He has been going to school part time but today he is going in for the whole day and we will just see how it goes. The overnight carers are working out well but I did find it difficult at first having so many people in my house, coming and going. Once the month is up though, it should go down to 3-4 nights a week which will be better for me, I think.
This week Holly was nominated by her school for Moray Young Citizen of the Year. We were both over the moon. If she doesn't win, I don't really care as the nomination itself is immense!
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| Jack and Holly together again |
On Thursday, Holly and I took the train to Queen Margaret University in Edinburgh where we attended the subject specific open day. She met some of the students who are going to be on her course and some of the lecturers too. I felt much happier once I had seen where she is going to live and study and it seemed a very safe place to be.
We were both very quiet on the way home as reality was kicking in, knowing that in just a few months she will be away. I will miss her so very much but in the meantime I am going to cherish every moment with my lovely girl.
It's Jack's 14th birthday this month and Holly's 18th next month so I have two birthday parties that I need to get a move on and organise. Holly's will take place after her birthday as she has so much on in April what with the rehearsals and actual performance of Joseph and his Technicolour Dreamcoat and studying for her exams.
I can't believe it's March already! Spring is definitely in the air and the nights are getting lighter which I absolutely love.
Hope all is well in your world my little gigglers.
I am so happy that you and Jack are home! He looks so wonderful in the picture with Holly. I can so understand your build up of the anger and emotions. Good for you for getting it out of your system. Been a long time coming but you're all home again...woo hoo.
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely delighted that you're all home, that you have help and that Jack is doing better :). It's not at all surprising RHS that all the stress and awfulness of the last few months is catching up on you....just hope the help stays in place until you start to feel better xx
ReplyDeletePS I don't know where the RHS in my comment came from - technology is a strange thing at times!
ReplyDeleteIt is good to know you are home and that Jack is doing well he does look good in the photo.
ReplyDeleteSuch good news all around. You all have been in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteSeems like forever since you were home so we are all super glad that the hospital stays are over.
ReplyDeleteJack and Holly look awesome in that picture and I am so proud of the accomplishments miss Holly is having to her credit.
Also glad you were able to get some of your frustrations out since you really can't just go over there and kill those idiots.
Hi to Holly & Jack and try to take good care of yourself.
Big Hugs,
Odie
Oh my goodness. So many changes for you. No wonder you're weepy. It's very difficult to go through these transformations. I have faith in you and I know you'll be o.k. And I also think it's fine to cry when you need to. Get it out of your system. Welcome home, Jack!
ReplyDeleteLove,
Janie
I'm happy for Holly over the nomination. How wonderful! Imagine, Jack is going back to school!! Hurray. I'm so glad. It must be hard having so many people in the house. God bless.
ReplyDeleteDearest lyndylou,
ReplyDeleteOh, how beautiful your Jack and Holly in the picture!!! I can see a lot of going on in your family; they both are growing up, don't they♬♬♬
Happy birthday 2 months for two♡♡♡
God bless all of your family, xoxo Miyako*
demolition is always good for stress release.
ReplyDeleteSo glad to see you back and your young ones look just wonderful in that photo.
I'm thrilled to hear that you are all back home safe and sound! I don't mind saying I was worried when there was no word for a bit there.
ReplyDeleteThe depression/miserable feeling will soon pass. It's like your body gets so accustom to the the stress hormones flowing through your body, then when you are home again and life is returning to normal your body doesn't know how to function without it - sort of like withdrawals i think.
Love that photo of Holly and Jack together. They really are both so beautiful, and congratulations to Holly on that awesome nomination. You must be so thrilled and proud of her. Make the most of the time that you have together, for I know how much you will miss her. I think when we have traumas in our lives, our bodies just keep going and then, we it is over, we just tend to collapse in a heap! I pray that Jack did well on his first full day back at school and I pray for a much better time ahead for the poor lad. Onwards and upwards my friend! x
ReplyDeleteBouncin' Barb - it's a great photo, but he was a typical teenager when it was being taken!
ReplyDeleteLooking for Blue Sky - I am hoping the help will continue at least for 3 nights a week :)
Jo -Anne's Rambling - he is doing so much better than I thought he would
Shelly - aww thank you :)
Odie - I know they look great in that picture and I am trying to take care of myself.
Janie Junebug - a lot of changes for sure and thank you for your faith in me :)
Belle - I am delighted for her, she so deserves some recognition
Orchid - yes two birthdays one after the other, so much fun lol
Mynx - I love me some demolition!
Kellie - I think that you're right, I just need time to adjust
Thisisme - Jack did great at school and coped beautifully