It's good to be home

It's great to be home but now exhaustion has set in.

I have had months of holding it all together and now I am starting to unravel. I cry at the drop of a hat, feel like I am walking through treacle and all this pent up anger I have over the treatment of Jack in Aberdeen is building up and has nowhere to go.

Until this weekend! I finally, with the help of Holly's boyfriend David, ripped out the built in wardrobes in my room and by Saturday evening I was on my knees with tiredness but I felt like like I had gotten rid of some of my angst! Job well done me thinks.

one of the built in wardrobes to come out

the other one is already out

David hard at work

Jack has been doing really well. We are having more good days than bad days and he is less tired. He has been going to school part time but today he is going in for the whole day and we will just see how it goes. The overnight carers are working out well but I did find it difficult at first having so many people in my house, coming and going. Once the month is up though, it should go down to 3-4 nights a week which will be better for me, I think.

This week Holly was nominated by her school for Moray Young Citizen of the Year. We were both over the moon. If she doesn't win, I don't really care as the nomination itself is immense!

Jack and Holly together again

On Thursday, Holly and I took the train to Queen Margaret University in Edinburgh where we attended the subject specific open day. She met some of the students who are going to be on her course and some of the lecturers too. I felt much happier once I had seen where she is going to live and study and it seemed a very safe place to be.

We were both very quiet on the way home as reality was kicking in, knowing that in just a few months she will be away. I will miss her so very much but in the meantime I am going to cherish every moment with my lovely girl.

It's Jack's 14th birthday this month and Holly's 18th next month so I have two birthday parties that I need to get a move on and organise. Holly's will take place after her birthday as she has so much on in April what with the rehearsals and actual performance of Joseph and his Technicolour Dreamcoat and studying for her exams.

I can't believe it's March already! Spring is definitely in the air and the nights are getting lighter which I absolutely love.

Hope all is well in your world my little gigglers.