On top of everything else I have been dealing with in the last 5 months I have also been dealing with the break up of my relationship with Friend with Perks.
I had hardly seen him while Jack was in hospital as he lives on the Islands and even when he was on the road in his lorry we never seemed to be in the same place at the same time.
Yes, we had lots of conversations on the phone and endless texts but going through all this with Jack made me realise that actually what I needed more than anything during that time was one of his amazing cuddles.
The less they were available to me the more I wanted them and by New Year Eve I had come to a decision.
I would rather be alone than hanker for someone who couldn't give me what I needed. It was a hard decision to make whilst I was already in the middle of turmoil but as you have already gathered by now, I don't do things by halves!
He has been part of my life for 7 years, cheering me on, lifting me up when I was down, making me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry, telling me how wonderful I was and he was always interested in what was happening in Holly and Jack's lives. He brought me back to life after a horrendous separation and divorce. I will always be grateful to him for that.
We were only meant to be friends with benefits but I crossed the line and fell in love. He loves me but he isn't able to give me what I need so I had to walk away. It hurts but I am ready for something more and if it comes along great but if it doesn't then so be it. If you love something, you have to set it free....right?
I am so sad because I know that I am not going to be able to be friends cos it hurts too much. Better to have a clean break.
I wish him all the best and I will always be glad that I knew him.
I had hardly seen him while Jack was in hospital as he lives on the Islands and even when he was on the road in his lorry we never seemed to be in the same place at the same time.
Yes, we had lots of conversations on the phone and endless texts but going through all this with Jack made me realise that actually what I needed more than anything during that time was one of his amazing cuddles.
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The less they were available to me the more I wanted them and by New Year Eve I had come to a decision.
I would rather be alone than hanker for someone who couldn't give me what I needed. It was a hard decision to make whilst I was already in the middle of turmoil but as you have already gathered by now, I don't do things by halves!
He has been part of my life for 7 years, cheering me on, lifting me up when I was down, making me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry, telling me how wonderful I was and he was always interested in what was happening in Holly and Jack's lives. He brought me back to life after a horrendous separation and divorce. I will always be grateful to him for that.
We were only meant to be friends with benefits but I crossed the line and fell in love. He loves me but he isn't able to give me what I need so I had to walk away. It hurts but I am ready for something more and if it comes along great but if it doesn't then so be it. If you love something, you have to set it free....right?
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I am so sad because I know that I am not going to be able to be friends cos it hurts too much. Better to have a clean break.
I wish him all the best and I will always be glad that I knew him.
